It's been a whlie...

I lugged out my guitar case and behold... new fender patch chords, straps and a $50 gift certificate to Long and McQuade. Duh. Jamming was fun. Almost everyone is a better musician than me. I bet if I wasn't so addicted to the internet I'd be better at guitar.

My Favourite Radio Station

103.1 California Indie

It reminds me of running around California... so awesome.

I've been thinking about Cali a lot.

Turn To Page: ctrl + alt + del

You know what... WindowsXP is horrible. I'm glad I've had my comp while my Mac has been in the shop but I am just amazed at how much better Macs are... things just work when you want them to and it's not a horrible choose your own adventure book that you always end up pressing ctrl + alt + del. I have a report due... I'm trying to print it. I HAVE the driver... I have the online support... my comp has issues...

Today is my last day of school. 2 exams and handing in that report. Feels good even if I only passed 5/8 classes. Hopefully I'll get to do some online over the summer.

What's a good band name? Sara and I are gonna start jamming again!

I also want to make a note at how awesome my friend Tasha is. She's gonna help me not be so wonky.

I should go cram a bit before my exam. Rock on.

Just Like Everyone Else

Just like everyone else I want to be more active. There are some bills I need to pay in town and I should really suck it up and do it. I'm going to do some grocery shopping today and I'm going to walk/jog for a bit today. I don't want to go into the buildings to pay my bills but I have to. Maybe I'll bring my camera and it'll be more "okay" or fun even... who knows what I'll see.

Agoraphobia is a piece of shit. My mother is all "You're getting pretty sad with your responsibilities child!" See... she forgot already what I'm going through.

Sick and Dreaming (about Billy Corgan)

Well today I feel triumphantly disgusting. Massive head cold of doom. For the last two months... I think I've been sick. Maybe I have mono, or scurvy or SOMETHING. More vitamins and more being active I need yes. Grammar awesome.

Someone asked me what the most beautiful thing I've ever seen is. Isn't it such a shame that I can't think of it for the life of me?

I had a wicked awesome cool dream last night about Billy Corgan I was living by him and I was setting up a hot tub in my front yard when I ran into him. He invited my friends and I to come to his house and we played this wrestling version of rock band and he signed some things for my friends but I was getting annoyed my friends were acting all star struck and giddy around him... after a while I managed to be the only one there and he tucked me into bed and asked me if I have ever had a "gaszah" or something like that and I said no. He left for a bit and came back with this grilled cheese type thing and it was yummy. We ended up having some deep talks about God and philosophy and fame it was interesting. It was one of those dreams I kept continuing and continuing and it was awesome.

Well I'm going to be late for class today but atleast I'm going I'm such a gross mess.

I miss Chicago.

Sleep Hag Spider

Well last night was interesting... I have a migraine... during the day I've taken reactine, my prescription eye drops for allergies and then for my brain that's imploding an advil. I go to lie down... for 2 hours because I have a paper I have to finish writing for my Philosophy of Love and Sex class which I was really looking forward to doing. Sometimes reactine makes my legs twitch at night but this was a different symptom. When my alarm went off at 1am to wake up and work on my paper I dreamy that my cell phone was a spider... but my eyes were open and I was kinda moving towards it... I swung it around infront of my face to investigate it... it's like I knew it was my cell but at the same time thought it was a spider... not enough tho because I wasn't disgusting. Here's some cracked out spiders that I found when I was trying to find a pic of a trippy spider. I hate spiders but these ones are lol: http://www.trinity.edu/jdunn/spiderdrugs.htm

I also dreamt last night that I was walking in Vancouver up Seymour and my friend Tasha had a clothing store and I was visiting her. I ended up running into someone I only know of through a friend of a friend named Rod and we were going to go out for sushi. Instead all sorts of friends from my past kept coming in and distracting me.

A checklist of things to do:

= Pay Income Tax Guy
= Figure out what the most beautiful thing I've ever seen is
= Prostitution Essay
= Buy Booze
= Pay Dentist Bill
= Pay Credit Card Start-Up Fees then cancel the piece of shit.

If only I liked going outside. ^^

Rock band; movie night party tonight, luau tomorrow. I'm not too looking forward to the luau but that's just anxiety about getting there I'm sure I'll have an ok time when I get there. I have white shorts with pineapples on them, sexy white heels, a yellow shirt and my favourite yellow BCBG hoodie. Oh yes. I'm sure I'll post pics when I get my MacBook back.

Long entry doh dee doh.

Kicking in the TV - Cans on the Trees; I Love You.

I was driving home and I drove by an iguana and since I haven't musted up the courage to stop my car and take pics... I didn't... Just like the church signs I keep missing.

My MacBook has been sent away to Apple. I finally managed to go do that. Boourns. I'm trying to take a buncha pics to start things off with it. I used to get so worked up about losing pictures because I always look at them and it's quite emotional for me. I try to think of things that... those pictures are not the memories themselves so I should be able to let go.

Income tax cheque = yay. I hit up value village and got some new mavi jeans, a reversible scarf with skulls on it, a beige and gold clutch and brand new pair of nice white sandal heels, all for $25.

I just woke up at 3am. I missed a presentation because of this cold/flu/allergy/possible eye infection thing I have going on and my teacher wants a docs note. I can't get in until May 15th... That's pathetic. It almost sounds illegal. I have to wait that long just to get my doc to fax something too. How ridiculous is that? I made the appointment WEEKS ago. It's just to fax paperwork. Schools out by then so it's not really of use to me. I could possibly fail this course because it was my exam... not to mention I was working hard at it and have a decent mark. Not to mention I'll have to live with sore eyes until then... unless I go to the hospital but hospitals make me wig out.

Now I'm grumpy about everything.

Kinky

Mr. Colbert I had no idea... I just had an interesting dream about Mr. Stephen Colbert. I'm not complaining.

My MacBook has died.

I was initiative... I was... excited... I had finished my Philosophy of Love & Sex report days before it was due. That's a rare occasion for me but I enjoy the class. I knew I wanted the weekend free and more free time to work on my marketing presentation... then in class... watching Harvey Birdman is crashed... I've talked to my friends Dale and Josh who are MacAwesome and it doesn't sound good I'll be taking it back to where I bought it today. The saddest thing about it is all the pictures I'm going to lose. I always looked at them. Not to mention the entire school year's worth of notes.... Now I'll have to bring binders again... and if Apple does get my mac up and running I'm sure they're have fun looking at my porn stash and dream journal entries.

I almost have no money. I have a roll of quarters and with gas being 1.12 a litre I don't think I'll be going to school much this week. Mother was supposed to lend me some cash until my income tax came in but I don't even have the money to go pick that up. It's a huge mess trying to get help... I mean. I don't feel like dealing with anything... and when I don't it just makes it worse but I can't seem to help it. It's so stupid what bothers me and what doesn't... and what is the most stupid is how hard it is for someone who has my problem to get help... I got a referral why do I have to deal with 45902836093647 docs appointments before someone can actually see me? I'm playing doctor tag and I'm sick of it. I almost don't care if I get help. I go to my docs I get what I need I call people back and they tell me to go back to the docs to get more... thing is my doctor is so busy so I'm waiting weeks in between that time while I'm off work and poorer and poorer by the minute. My income tax return which was supposed to give me a vacation in Vancouver is probably going to be money I need to sustain myself now.

Ugh.

This better all be worth it. Time for me to go try and deal with life. Wish me luck.